Maybe you noticed that I blacked out the site yesterday, and it was going to be a definitive thing.

In the last few weeks I’ve written occasionally, then pulled those posts, back and forth… It’s not like I was trying to reply Lum’s drama with SND entirely on my own, or that I went crazy (well, a little bit), or that I’m a bluff (I hate you). It’s only that some things popped up along the way, I got some (very weak, but still very important for me) hopes up. I was oscillating between “can I continue then?” “Is it over?” then those hopes were crushed and it was again game over. I’ve given all I had to give. Goodbye.

Then Zonk wakes up today and reminds me that we still had to finish something. A little thing that I want to complete. I didn’t remember that and I thought that he just didn’t want to continue as he didn’t write me for more than a week. Like “Omg, this is an idiot. Lets ignore him and hope he goes away!” I thought we were done for good even in that case.

Instead he wakes up today.

So here we are again, He is a reason good enough as another to keep things up for a few more weeks. There isn’t any other goal or purpose or whatever. So, why not?

Since I’m also tired and annoyed by all this back and forth I MAY start to write again. For a month (2007 – it ends). As I did before the 12 September. Maybe.