I knew I should have closed the site when I had decided to.<\/p>\n
If this is another bluff then I’d be glad, but for sure it’s not planned nor deliberate. So here I stop again. In the last couple of months I wrote less, but I gave up to the urge in many cases. This time I doubt I’ll write, no matter how big the news or short the comment. We’ll see. Maybe just another bluff.<\/p>\n
I’m sorry for the few readers I have and even more sorry to see my own efforts come down to nothing.<\/p>\n
Well, going back I’d still make the same choices. Please no comments, because after the third time they would be inappropriate.<\/p>\n
\/emo off<\/p>\n
EDIT: So it looks like this isn’t going to be a bluff (things are unsure even for me). I take the occasion of an e-mail to repeat in short the reasons of the “I quit”, so they can stay up here.<\/p>\n
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\nI’ve written during the “original stop intention” (September 12) the reasons why I decided to stop.<\/p>\n
It’s not because I’m not having fun anymore writing, but because I want to do it even more. I want it to lead somewhere, to be fruitful. I want to continue to learn and dedicate myself to it. I want to be part of it.<\/p>\n
So more than a desire to do something else, I have the desire to persist. The problem here is just in the unwanted conflict between what I’d like to do and what I have to do. My “real” life asks me to betray my desires, because they lead nowhere and are that kind of childish wishes that should die as soon as possible.<\/p>\n
I am the dreamer, I’m the one who chases the impossible. That’s why I lasted more and did much more than what was intended. But I’m also on a point where I don’t seem to have that luxury of choice anymore. I’m not anymore a kid, need to find a job, find something to do that is in the realm of “realistic” and all that. Even if it doesn’t correspond to what I want for myself.<\/p>\n
I also don’t accept compromises. I don’t accept to write about games as an hobby. I don’t accept to do it in my spare time. I won’t let the site slowly decline because I have to do something else.<\/p>\n
So. Or I continue (and this path seems closed now), or I betray myself.<\/p>\n
That’s all.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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